I Want It To Be Real
We've all seen those motivational videos. We've all seen clips of people bouncing back, seemingly stronger, after going through a hard time. It looked empowering on the screen. It looked awesome. It looked like something worth living for. Maybe that's why it hit harder when things weren't like that. When I had tears before the comeback, emotions before the strength, and a heart too restless to breathe, yet too tired to begin. For me, that comeback didn't look like one dramatic moment where I decided to just fix it all. Maybe it's because that's just how life is. You can't force change. You can't expect the rainbow to shine on you when the rain is still quietly pounding in your ears. And yet I don't understand pain is considered a great teacher, an unwavering strength. Because I've learnt from mistakes many times. It just never felt so....glossy and simple for me. I still repeated the same mistakes. I got hurt by the same things. I stayed quie...
